Today's Nationals. Definitely one of my most relax (for various reasons)
I wouldn't say much but pictures will be up soon *cross fingers*

Thank you for listening! i hope...

Tomorrow is a start if a brand new day... A brand new week... A brand new phase!!

*Scarily excited*

I've generally told all the people i wanted to face-to-face. So soon i'll let everyone else know. Update more in due course.

Sleep sound for now

XOXO

Days are passing in a daze...
I need to know what I'm doing but i don't.
Moving like clockwork, willing my mind to comprehend.
Not really understanding, but just doing...
My heart to becoming soft... weak...
Now i just feel bad.
It's gonna be so near yet so far
And i still don't know what to do.

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Tomrrow... Nationals...
*lost for words*

Today I am going to complain about service.
Not just any service... but the kind of service you get at the more atas (aka high class) places.

Have you ever walked into a branded boutique, only to have the service staff there eye you up and down? Or worse still... sneer at you, and give you the "you sure you can afford anything here" look! I'm sure many of us have gone through this at least once before. How we might have handled it could have differed, but we've been there.

So my stories goes like this,
Tai Tai X decided that she wanted to get a new apartment. So she called up her housing agent to fix and appointment to view this very new and very very prestigious condo (lets call it SR)
Tai Tai X did not like shopping alone and wanted a second opinion, so decided to ask a few of her friends along for the viewing.
Dressed in their causal clothes and un-branded bags, they walked into SR show flat.
Immediately the 2 sales rep there gave them the once over (with their eyes)
Unimpressed with what she saw (remember... no visible brands in sight) she greeted them with a arrogant "hello, how may i help you".
The usual proceedings followed...
The sale rep explained the concept and structure, but she would answer every question with a certain air. It felt like having someone talk down to you, and giving the "i don't think you understand what i'm saying" tone
Getting a little pissed off... Tai Tai X went on to ask if there was space for a wet kitchen (despite being a tai tai, she liked to cook)
The sale rep's answer, "No. There isn't one. Normally people who choose this property hardly cook"
*SHOCKED*
Controlling herself from just stomping off, Tai Tai X shot back and said "So i guess there's no need for a washing machine too cause people who stay here don't do their own laundry too right!?"
There was silence....
Continued walking around...
At the end, Tai Tai X turn to her housing agent and exclaim, "Actually i was really interested in this property, however due to certain factors i've changed my mind."
With that, she and her friends walked out but not before giving the 2 sales rep a once over.

If attitude was a little better, Tai Tai X was all ready to sign. But not.... Too bad! She can kiss her fat commission good bye! Haha...

It was also heard that the next day, this service staff got into trouble with the management. (But it was not Tai Tai X that complained) Hmm.... If someone else did, that says a lot about her....
And from the sounds of it, i think she can kiss this job good bye!

Well.... Morale of the story is; don't look down on anyone that walks through your doors.
Like what they say, It's not the LV that matters but what's inside the LV that counts!


*** I don't know the point of this story. But i was bored....
Well, i wouldn't be so bored very soon, and i don't know how many more random posts i can write.
The next phase is coming. I'm scare, excited and anxious all at the same time.
Wish me luck and Pray for me!

Nationals is around the corner. Raise your hands if you're prepared!
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*blah*

One Hundred!!

I think I'm going with "YES" (for now at least)

More will be revealed in due time

And just as life was getting back on track, stupid things gotta happen again to throw you off balance.
At least... this time i think i'm more prepared...
*cross fingers*

Now... I must do a small shout out

• Thanks... Cow for keeping my phone busy
• Thanks... Jas for that breakfast
• Thanks... Agnes for dinner

You girls really helped me put things into perspective and made it all better.

Fiona's back!!
And ready to fight!!
*Beware she'll bite*

p.s/ oh yes... thanks to Jon too.. for letting me be a total bitch (through email)

I finally need to make a desicion.

Yes??

or

No??

And all that implications in between...



"When will my dark clouds pass?"

A quick update;

It's been an emotional-ful roller-coaster of a week! Almost everything type was experienced. But some of the good ones were kindda over shadowed by the bad. So it was really hard to tell how i was really feeling. I want to share all the happy times... Cow's birthday, my new hair, rehearsals, taste test, The Wedding, the photo shot, the food, the flowers, the cute little flower girl, the triplets, the bridal party, the company, the love and joy.... So many things to be happy about!
But i'm just not really feeling it....
This week i learn that it s so hard to smile-on-demand, smile when you don't feel like it, smile when you actually feel like crying.
I haven't cried since...................
(Okie... lets move on...)
The bitterness and resentment, the sadness and the pain, the unsure and frantic lost.... It's all been equally (if not more) overwhelming the past few weeks. Then i find myself stuck in a corner with no where to turn to. I pick up my phone, and i can't find anyone to call. That was definitely a lowest. And so painful.....

But mostly importantly.... I know that over the course of these few weeks, i've let some ppl down. All i can say is that i am really sorry. I will give no excuse for me losing focus, for letting some things over take others. I had to choose and i made a choice that at that time felt right and important. Not saying that i feel that they are wrong now.... Just that I'm Sorry that it caused disappointment and anger.

*oh this was suppose to be a short one...*

This is my blog and it should only be filled with happy memories... But once in a while, I "indulge"
I need time alone right now... To find the answers i need to know...
I will go now... until i can write about all things happy again...
But rest assure i will be back (Just like how Fiona always bounce back in the end!)
But for now i need time alone...
I need time to find that delete and refresh button in my head.

XOXO

Got rudely awaken again...
Sleep has been like 3hrs per night for almost a week already...
I thought some cool breeze would do me good...
Maybe i could fall asleep by the pool like i use to...
But end up just walking and walking further away
I saw school buses pull in...
I almost forgot what it felt like to go to school so early in the morning.
Maybe i need that routine back in my life?

There is so much going on this week
Cow's day....
The wedding...
Last classes...
New classes...
Loads of preparation work...

The more you try not to think about something, the more it forces it's way through
Clouds your thinking, and mess with your head
Deb said to just follow your gut!
But right now there are just a lot of questions and very little answers.
My gut says to get these answers now!
But reality tells me i have to wait...

Waiting for the world to wake...
"I'm so tired"

But we need to pause and remember we're not alone.
I know that if it's not for cow, i wouldn't know how to survive these few days...
Thanks and more importantly...

Happy Birthday!!

I see

I hear
I feel
But i am still confuse...

Some things come, while others go.
We learn to make choices, not knowing which is the right one.
But we stick to our gut
Have a little faith
And pray real hard
That the choice we choose is the right one.

Help!
I need to know what all this means...

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Here's my tribute to GREATEST swimmer of all time!

With such style...


An unspoken confidence...

and still so much humbleness in that smile


His passion, his drive.. Shinning so bright!


Michael Phelps is indeed #1!!


A true inspiration for generations to come.

Yes... go face the wall and don't talk to me.... BLAH!

It been a roller coaster of emotions. Some of us have it better then others. Plauge with the choices we need to make, sometimes the best way is just to hang loose with your friends. And the answer will catch up to you soon enough. Even when all else fails, at least you'll hvae a good time!

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It was a night of Insomnia!


Batteries Not Included



And of course it is always fun with my pretty...


More pls...

Thanks for helping me eat that meal!

Yay-ness i have my cup!
*grins*

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Even meh-meh knows the importance of the seat belt!

*so cute la*
Thanks for all that company!


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Cake and Balloons...
Yummy food and Ice cream...
Screaming children and Chattering adults...
and even
A Magician and Sparkles!!!

Yup!! It's a kids party!!

The birthday girl...
Enjoying her time in the lime light

Count the candles...
Sing a song...
Blow out the candles...
Finally time for some cake!!

Oh yes... She's FIVE!!

Happy Birthday my lovely Vic!
*hugs*

Happy

National

Day!!

Happy Happy Birthday!

I heart fireworks

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Everybody…

Huat ah!!

hmmm...

inactive vs proactive

this should be interesting

(I guess it's ok...)

Today was ultimate random-ness!

(And just for today... Anything you say goes...)

First to get the food...
Then made our way down
Got caught in a silly jam on the way...

The dumb-dumb cab driver took a super long way! *blah*

The weather was great
The breeze blew
The sun was up
Walked around a bit

We found a nice shelter to settle down

And started preparing our make shift pit!


Setting up the fire...
Always good to have a guy around


All the yummy food we bought!
Not too bad for a last min thing...



After much much effort....

(Thanks to Fie)

The fire got going and we were ready to cook!

Simple but yummy!

We cook and cooked some more!

And the food turned up mighty yummy-liously looking!!

"Wah... Sibei Golden brown!"
(Our joke)

And surprisingly we were had entertainment too...

So random la....

Yummy food
Great company
Lots of small talks
Stories to share
And nice music playing....

We ate and ate and ate....
Everything was just enough

And we were satisfied!

And then to carry on in line with the random theme of today....

We took many random shots....


We climbed a random tree....



We scream our random frustration to the sea!

Let all the unhappiness out!!

Focus on what makes you happy!

I hope you're feeling better now.
"That's what friends are for..."

Cow asked me out for dinner.
Ended up having it with 2 other of her friends.
Some how i felt like i kanna "conned" into going!
(shh..... don't tell them i said that. heehee)
But hey.... dinner is dinner!
It was a good dinner!
Oh... and i nice ride too!
(although at the start it felt quite odd sitting in that car)
And hey... i never pass on an opportunity to dress up!
Heehee

Err... Thanks Babe!
(I guess...)

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A silly boy sprain his wrist today....
Aiyo.... So careless lor...
And now i've to help him think how to write his essay....
Gotta get those brain juice flowing again!
Later....

I love...



... the whole world!

Was packing some stuff when i came across my old photo album from school...


I remember MK wrote this when we were in pre-u,
It's became the first page of our photo album, and it's still there.

Those were some crazy times...

We see friends change...
People come and go
Love found and lost
Then before you know if, we've all suddenly grown up!

And now we think back...
"Those were the times when we were young..."

Despite how things have change, I will always be grateful for those fun memories and crazy adventures!