lousy mood

yes, you don't need to gasp... i am home on a saturday night. feeling light headed and float-ish, like i just took a whole bottle of cough syrup. don't think it's too good an idea to be out. i'll probably bang someone down or get bang down myself. so i am here, in my home, all alone, writing this post with no caps and paragraphing. I estimate that after the first 4 lines (max) most people will give up reading. but somehow, i'm not quite bothered by it. so, this afternoon i met a friend for lunch. then i decided to try on this dress. and it turn out to be really pretty. despite it looking all plain and boring. but couldn't think of a good reason/excuse to get it. my friend insisted that it was too pretty to pass and said that i should get it as a stand-by dress. maybe it was the light headed-ness, but i wasn't swayed. i put the dress back and decided that i should sleep on it. damn i should have taken a picture to remind myself how hot that dress was! oh well. if i go back and it's still there then it must be faith! or maybe if i wish hard enough, it will suddenly appear on my front door! (ha! ya right... in my dreams!) enough abt the dress. did i ever mention that "karma's a bitch". never get in its way. it will never do you any good. it will always bite back harder then you imagine! don't mess with it! ok, if you're made it this far, you're either damn bored or just a bit crazy! because even i cannot read back at what i've written. oh, i just bought a new pair of jeans. yes i know i hardly wear them, but this just look good and there was this great discount! anyway, i tried the size in the shop and it fit nicely. i wanted a size smaller just to confirm. but the lady couldn't find the size smaller. and she assured me that it wouldn't stretch out too much. i was too taken in and how nicely it fitted that i decided to just get the size i was trying. i wore it out last night, and it became so loose! like it grew a full size up at the waist! i was so irritated!! everything else fitted so nicely! i will definitely not put on weight to fit into that jeans... i just wish that it will shrink to fit better. should have insisted on the smaller size. damn! so irritated with myself. Oh damn!! my other friend just msg. i totally forgotten to meet her for our run! this is bad! i got so distracted by this afternoon that i completely forgot to confirm with her. now i just feel so bad! light headed and being mad at yourself is not a good combi. maybe i deserve that ill fitted jeans for being such a lousy friend... blah! this sucks. i'm going to hide in bed and never come out =(